Publishing this page as it stands is my first radical act of rebellion on this blog. Beating perfectionism here and now. 

This blog is my personal exercise in being humble about my imperfections. An acknowledgement of my flaws for all to see, if you will. 

In sharing these stories, experiences, exercises, I hope to be able to speak to other women that struggle with health, food, and mental health issues that might not fit into any boxes...but are very real nonetheless. Rally around, you are not alone. 

Maya J. Heart profile
 

hey gorgeous! i want you to feel good about yourself.

Do you often start new habits, exercise routines, and diets full force... only to feel burnt out quickly? 

Do you often end the weekend feeling guilty? Always consider Monday your day to start afresh?

Do you curse at yourself for your lack of willpower? 

Do you have an all-or-nothing attitude? 

Are you never satisfied when you look in the mirror? 

Do you think that you would be happy if only... [enter goal that requires you to eat less chocolate, drink less wine and spend less time in bed]. 

yes? then we understand each other. Let's talk. 

My name is Maya and I create content for women to help them find peace within their minds, bodies, and lives. I am an eating disorder survivor, recovering perfectionist, former resident of the Land of Extremes, and mentor for girls struggling with food and/or body image issues. 

I have an MSc in human rights, but decided to follow my heart and go back to school to study Nutritional Therapy at the Institute for Optimum Nutrition. Can you image how scary that 180 was? But as a nutritional science nerd with an allergy to pseudo-science (hello superfoods, fasted cardio and morning-lemon-water, I am looking at you) I absolutely love it. 

I want to write stories that make you feel understood. Because in the end we are all the same you know? By sharing my experiences, research, exercises, I hope to speak to other women that struggle with self image, food, womanhood, and mental health issues that might not fit into any boxes. Rally around. You're not alone.

My story: Intuitive living, intuitive eating

I was never good with food: as a toddler I remember being overly occupied with the speed at which I ate snacks; as a teen I often felt out of control, the guilt that followed was no joke.

These tendencies developed into an eating disorder when I went to uni at 17. I felt alone and confused and not-fitting-in. So I stopped eating. Because that would make everything better. (Newsflash: it didn't)

For over six years I struggled with my 'Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified' (anorexia, bulimia) and all-encompassing food obsession. It breaks my heart to think that, added up, I must have wasted years worrying about what/where/when my next meal would be. On top of that my mood would literally swing round as many as ten times a day. I was exhausted, confused and lonely. 

It wasn't until I decided that I was absolutely, completely, 100% done that the real change began. Most importantly, I decided that I was going to allow myself an unlimited amount of food. It was exactly as scary as it sounded. But slowly my body's cues returned, and my food obsession started to disappear --obsessing over something that's allowed just isn't as interesting!

Obviously recovery wasn't as easy as 1,2,3... I learned. I fell. I grew & I healed. 

I am healing today. (let's not kid anyone into thinking this process ever ends)

I am still passionate about health & fitness. But I also now know that the Mystical Land of Balance exists: you can be into fitness (or not) and not miss out on a single thing. Like carbs and gluten, wine, lazy mornings and peanut butter.

 

 

 

my story 

 

I am an eating disorder survivor, recovering perfectionist and former resident of the Land of Extremes. Mondays were my clean slate; a day not to reminisce about how much fun the weekend was, but to hide away the feelings of guilt that were attached to the memories.

I have always been a writer first. 

I feel best when I'm writing. 

 

 

 

 


- yoga time: felt the need to go every day. Meaning the every single day I didn't go, I felt like a failure. Even though I never assumed I'd have the time to go 7 days a week! 

Do you feel like happiness will forever be just one pound, one green juice, one week of 'clean' eating or one holiday away? Let me tell you a secret. 

you already have everything you need.

You are glorious and perfect. You are divinely feminine, sexy, capable of love. You have so much to give to this world, right now. 

I promise.

You don't need to be one of those mystical Instagram girls who seem to eat chocolate all day long, live on the beach, and have the perfect flow in their hair. All that stands in between you and happiness, is you.  

I am a control freak extraordinaire. Queen of the land of extremes. Once upon my time my love for Sunday morning HIIT sessions and Saturday evening wine with sweet potato fries almost drove me insane. But it is totally possible to have both, All you need to do is allow yourself to have them. 

 


 

Trust me, I know. I am a control freak extraordinaire and queen of extremes: finding balance be

I am a control freak and queen of extremes: finding balance between my love of healthy living, and wine with sweet potato fries is an ongoing struggle. 

But once I realised that all I had to do was release the negative thoughts 

You can love your Sunday morning HIIT sessions, but still drink wine and eat sweet potato fries.

For years i believed that self love and acceptance were just one pound, one yoga class or one holiday away. But none of those things ever made me feel any better. It wasn't until I decided to take responsibility for my feelings that I was able to accept myself as I was. 

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  • My favourite affirmations to start the day. 
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I firmly believe that you have it in you to be happy right now.

I used to believe that happiness and self-love were just one pound, one yoga class or one holiday away. Since recovering from my 'eating disorder not otherwise specified' and food obsession, I know that I never needed any of those things to be happy. All I needed 

I used to believe that happiness and self-love were just just one pound,

 just one pound, 

Since recovering from my 'eating disorder not otherwise specified' and food obsession, I have made it my mission to show women that they are exactly who they are meant to be: glorious, radiant, divinely feminine. 

It is my mission to show women that they already are exactly who they are meant to be. 

 

I am an eating disorder survivor and recovering perfectionist. Extremes come natural to me: finding balance between my love for exercise and sweet potato fries is an ongoing struggle. 

I want to show you that you are exactly who you are meant to be: glorious, radiant, 

 

I am wildly introverted, but not shy. (something I still find hard to accept sometimes) 

I am a writer

I believe in the cyclical nature of women. In a resurgence of the divine feminine energy that resides inside us all. 

I believe in sexuality 

I believe it is time you become who you are meant to be. 

I am an eating disorder survivor and recovering perfectionist. Extremes come natural to me, and finding balance between my love for exercise and french fries is an ongoing struggle. 

I am wildly introverted, but not shy. I am a firm believer that all of my friends 

'm great at extremes and finding balance has been my greatest achievement

 I am great at extremes, but forever chasing balance. I am wildly introverted, but not shy. I am a firm believer that we are all exactly as we should

I believe in the cyclical nature of women. In feminine energy. In love and attraction and positive thinking. 

By sharing stories, experiences, exercises, I hope to speak to other women that struggle with self image, food and mental health issues that might not fit into any boxes. Rally around, you are not alone.

This space is my personal exercise in being humble about my imperfections: I write, I fear, I share anyway. 

 

 

 

Why? Because I know what it is like to have neither of those things. Like so many women, I used to live inside a body that made me cringe every time I caught a glance of it in the mirror. Social gatherings would make me anxious, because what about clean eating? And

In sharing stories, experiences, exercises, I hope to be able to speak to other women that struggle with self image, food and mental health issues that might not fit into any boxes. 

I am an eating disorder survivor and recovering perfectionist. I am great at extremes, but forever chasing balance. I am wildly introverted, but not shy. 

 

exist inside a body that makes you cringe every time you catch a glance of it in the mirror, to feel anxious at the thought of going out with friends

I am an eating disorder survivor and recovering perfectionist. I am great at extremes, but forever chasing balance.. I am wildly introverted, but not shy. 

 

At 23 I broke free of my eating disorder, and since then I have been on a quest to tear down all resistance inside of me that separates me from mental balance. 

I am 

At 23 I broke free of my eating disorder, and since then I have been on a quest to tear down all resistance inside of me that separates me from mental balance. 

 

my disordered eating & thinking habits around food, proving to myself that full recovery is possible. Since I have believed I reached the 'ceiling' of recovery countless of times... only to be able to tear away another layer. 

At 23 I broke free of my disordered eating habits, proving to myself that full recovery is possible. 

 

My story

I was never good with food: as a toddler I remember being overly occupied with the speed at which I ate snacks; as a teen I often felt out of control, the guilt that followed was no joke.

Your purpose is to heal yourself, so that you can teach others how you healed.
— Gabby Bernstein

These tendencies developed into an eating disorder when I went to uni at 17. I felt alone and confused and not-fitting-in. So I stopped eating. Because that would make everything better. (Newsflash: it didn't)

For over six years I struggled with my 'Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified' (anorexia, bulimia) and all-encompassing food obsession. It breaks my heart to think that, added up, I must have wasted years worrying about what/where/when my next meal would be. On top of that my mood would literally swing round as many as ten times a day, which was exhausting like nothing else.